Yesterday

Yesterday, everything changed in the most beautiful way possible :)

More to follow...

EL

xxx

What if he hates my muffin tops?

I guess I'm just one of those girls who is desperate to be liked. 

This can make dating a little bit scary, especially when you've spent the last couple of weeks hiding behind your laptop screen, photoshopping dodgy pics to make yourself thinner, prettier, less spotty, muffin topless and unrecognisable.

"Oh I do hope he like's my prom pics from 2004"

There are certain fears any inocent single girl will suffer from, even though it's only drinks... dinner... a movie, with the expectation that you might like each other enough to meet up again and nothing else.

See, when you've spent the last year in a trusting, committed relationship with a man who knows everything about you, there are certain things you don't need to stress about so much...

• Silence.  In a relationship silence is a beautiful thing, it starts of being a comfortable 'I'm lying in his arms and he is in my arms and we are just lying together in silence and its so romantic' to 'I'm facebooking in bed on the laptop in silence and he's playing Words with Friends on his phone on the toilet' kinda silence... equally comfortable in their own ways.  Silence on a date is EXCRUTIATING nobody sits in silence on a date thinking 'oh isn't this nice!'  NOBODY. 

                                           

"Chicken?"

"Erm..... No thanks"

"Oh you don't like chicken?"

"Not really"

"Erm...."

"Erm..."

• Making a fool of yourself.  Another thing that's completely ok, between you and your partner, you know each other, you do silly things together, these silly things end up becoming future talking points you can entertain (bore) your hypothetical grandchildren with in 40 years time at family Christmas gatherings.  On a date... it's just painful.  I once dated a man who told me a story about the time he was on a date with a girl in a restaurant.  He excused himself to use the toilet, anyway, I can only assume he wanted to stroke her face or something because he washed his hands, and in the process completely soaked his jeans with water, making it appear he had pissed all over himself.  He removed the offending article and tried to fix the problem under the hand-dryer... in vain.  He really liked her... but he escaped out the back entrance, leaving her alone... with the bill, rather than attempting to explain that he hadn't pissed all over himself!  I later found out he was actually this wankerish in real life too!  I digress....  Last date I went on... I was super nervous and I tripped over nothing, I also attempted to drink some wine and missed my mouth... what followed these incidents?... SILENCE.  Did we see each other again?  NO.

"Ground? Swallow me alive"

• He knows how big/small/wonky your tits are, without need for super corsettry or ridiculously padded bras.  Likewise... you only have to wear your Bridget Jones knickers to special occassions because you can fit into that size 12 dress properly without them; and your significant other knows you are wearing them, because you told him, or he witnessed you jumping up and down on the spot, risking a stroke, trying to cram every last little bit of muffin top, because you no longer have any dignity.  I have this issue, I have a whole range of 'super pants' for all kinds of occasions... dates are not one of those occassions.  Let's refer back to Bridget Jones as this explains why perfectly :) 

"I can't wait for him to rip of my spanx" - Shit nobody says.

• He knows all the bad stuff, your secrets, deepest insecurities, you can trust him to keep them safe and support you when times are tough.  YOU CANNOT SPILL THIS SHIT ON A FIRST DATE, infact these things take time and I guess they are part of really getting to know and trust each other in a healthy relationship.  I have done this... a (much younger) super nervous me went on a date with a nice young man I met on the bus.  Yes it's true we met on the bus.  He always got on before me and when I got on we would smile at each other, he was good looking, but a bit ginger, anyway, one day as he wobbled past me to exit and gave me his bus ticket.  He has scribbled his number on it... I didn't even know his name.  It was exciting and a bit romantic.  He had obviously scribbled it whilst actually travelling on the bus, either that or his handwriting was really shoddy.  I text him and we met a few evenings later by the marina for drinks.  He was lovely, I remember thinking I really liked him, but was super anxious he wouldn't like me... anyway, I drank some wine... actually by some I mean about 6 large glasses... and proceeded to tell him how I had just split up with my ex, and he was super angry about it and refusing to leave the house we shared and we were having this massive battle about who was leaving and he threw a telephone at my head but it missed (then showed him evidence pictures of the big hole in the wall on the phone just incase I wanted to involve the police), and that he was gonna go mad that I was out drinking with another man because he is majorly jealous in quite a violent way, and he owed me several thousands of pounds, so I had no money and baliffs knocking my door down everyday.......

... He didn't call me again :(  I can't imagine why! 

You know when I meet Mister Right... I know I will be able to confide in him.  I have experienced so much in my little time on earth, and I really believe that a person needs to understand my past to fully understand who I am now.  There's a lot I have never told anybody, I do have secrets.  When the time is right and the person is right, I'll get those secrets of my chest.  But until that time i'll keep them with me, locked away inside this complicated little head, you never know perhaps they will make it onto the blog in years to come...


Now I'm just wondering what sort of insecurities my male couterparts might be dealing with?!!....

"Erm..."

Much love and hiccups

EL xxx

Long to reign over us happy and glorious etc....

As of 2nd June 2012, Queen Elizabeth 2nd has spent 60 whole years being Queen Elizabeth 2nd... That's pretty amazing, that's like almost my whole life x2.

I'm not really a royalist, I don't really understand the purpose of a monarchy. What can I say? I don't proclaim to know everything about everything. At dinner parties I normally abide by the unwritten rule that 'one' will not talk about religion or politics, this is great because when it comes to these two things, I am clueless, I have more knowledge about the Eurovision Song Contest of 1973. Luxembourg's 4th win, Spain 2nd and the Uk came 3rd, with a stellar performance from Sir Cliff - all this amidst terrorist threats, following the incident at the Olympics in Munich 1972 where lots of people got shot. (Good film is that, Munich).

I read that on wikipedia so I think it's true.

I did actually watch Munich, it is very good.

Anyway moving forward in the realm of my lack of insight into the monarchy...

....A very long time ago, I was given the option at school to study either GCSE History or GCSE Geography... This is how it was sold to me...

OK, History will involve lots of writing, watching endless documentaries on wars, (at this point I am pretty sure I was snoring into my pencil case (dans ma trouse? That's my B in French talking there...)

Anyway... Geography! Geography is gonna be so much fun, you need to get yourselves a big set of colouring pencils, because we have maps, bar charts, and fun projects you are gonna need to fill with an array of pretty colours! WHERE ARE MY PENCILS ALREADY :D

It was tough but I decided to study Geography. I got a B, not bad, I'm still very proud of myself. That B in geography has stood me in good stead for erm... The occasional pub quiz...

Anyway I know bugger all about history, I know a little bit about World War 2, I love Inglorious Basterds!

I blame my schooling for anything I don't know but I should know... And my parents... And wikipedia.

I'm sure I'm not alone. I get the feeling an awful lot of folks say that they 'love the Queen' with no idea what she actually does.



Now I'm not gonna start slagging the woman off, and here's why

I believe I could be hanged for it.

It has to be one hell of a job being the monarch everyday of your life, wearing those heavy crowns and capes and putting up with nonsense from political leaders.

She looks good on our currency. Sorry Charles but as faces go, I've seen prettier, and I don't want your smug grin and humongous ears rolling out at me every time I draw out my electric money, I certainly don't wish to see this when I am paying for food. Even Wills is showing signs of wear and tear, I hope to God if he becomes King they put Kate on the money, because she is far nicer to look at. Harry - I cannot even comprehend. This would ruin my life.



Ps. I don't hate gingers, (my cat is ginger!) I promise, it's not that, plus on the twenty his hair would be purple so it doesn't matter.

Lastly and most importantly I would like to thank the Queen for giving us a nice long bank holiday weekend!

God bless you LIZ!